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  1 ArinaDoroleevaarora Le 11/07/2026

  The hospital smell clings to my clothes,
  a phantom scent of disinfectant and decay,
  even months after you've turned to ash.
  
  Your empty bed screams in the silence of our house,
  the indentation of your wasted body still pressed into the mattress
  like a ghost trying to hold on.
  
  I trace the rim of your favorite teacup,
  the one with the tiny chip you never let me fix,
  and my fingers come away cold,
  so cold,
  as if death has permanently settled in the porcelain.
  
  The pills spill from the orange bottle on your nightstand,
  a colorful cemetery of failed hope,
  each capsule a tombstone marking another day
  you slipped further away from me.
  
  I watched you waste,
  watched cancer eat you from the inside out
  like a ravenous beast I couldn't name or fight.
  Your beautiful body became a roadmap of pain,
  veins like rivers carrying poison instead of life.
  
  And I stood by,
  useless,
  helpless,
  praying to a god who wasn't listening,
  while you became less and less,
  until you were nothing but bone and suffering
  and eyes that begged for release.
  
  Why you and not me?
  Why am I still breathing air that you can no longer taste?
  Why does my heart still beat when yours has stopped?
  Survival feels like a betrayal,
  like I've stolen the breath that should have been yours.
  
  The mirror shows your face superimposed over mine,
  hollowed eyes and sunken cheeks,
  a future I'm already living without you.
  I smash the glass,
  watch the pieces scatter like my sanity,
  each shard reflecting a broken version of the daughter
  who couldn't save you.
  
  The worms of regret crawl through my veins,
  whispering that I should have done more,
  said more,
  been more,
  but it's too late for anything but this
  this endless gnawing emptiness where love used to live.
  
  Darkness has become my only companion,
  the only thing that understands the magnitude of this loss.
  I walk through our house at night,
  touching your things,
  inhaling the fading scent of you on your clothes,
  pretending for just a moment that you're still here.
  
  But morning always comes,
  bringing with it the brutal reality
  that I am alone,
  that you are gone,
  that the cancer didn't just take your body
  but hollowed out my soul as well.
  
  I hear you calling sometimes,
  not with words but with the memory of your voice,
  and I follow the sound toward the edge,
  toward the place where the veil between worlds grows thin,
  where I might finally join you,
  finally escape this prison of survival.
  
  The razor glints in the bathroom light,
  promising reunion,
  promising peace,
  promising an end to this agony of being alive
  when the one who gave me life is gone.
  
  Soon, Mother,
  soon I'll come find you where the pain can't reach us,
  where cancer can't follow,
  where we can be together again
  in the silence of the grave,
  the only place that feels like home anymore.
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  2 IstzDianaFaritovnaRooca Le 06/07/2026

  My name is Amira, I'm 29, and I'm dying in Jeddah. Not literally, not yet, though the voices wish I would. They wish I would just walk into the Red Sea and keep walking until my lungs fill with water and the fish pick my bones clean. "Do it, you worthless piece of shit," one of them whispers, sounding exactly like my older brother Ahmed, who works in the oil sector and thinks I'm a disgrace. "Just fucking end it. Nobody wants you. Your own father would piss on your grave if he knew what you really are."
  
  I'm an architect. Or I was. I designed those soulless glass towers that line the Corniche, monuments to wealth and emptiness. Now I can barely draw a straight line. My hands shake too much. The voices, you see. They started about two years ago. Not as voices then, just... whispers. Strange coincidences. Comments on social media that seemed too personal. Jokes from colleagues that cut too close to the bone. I thought I was paranoid. Maybe I am. But they're here now, inside my head, and they never, ever shut up.
  
  "Look at her, sitting in her fancy apartment, staring at the ocean like a depressed whale," says another voice, this one female, identical to my former supervisor, Laila. "What a pathetic excuse for a woman. Can't even keep a husband. Can't even pray right. God must be laughing at you, Amira. You're a joke. A walking, breathing joke with a designer handbag."
  
  They know everything. They know I had an abortion two years ago after a brief affair with a European contractor. They know the shame that burns in my gut every time I see a pregnant woman. "Murderer," they hiss, in the voice of the imam at my local mosque. "Baby killer. You'll burn in hell for that, you whore. No amount of praying will wash that blood from your hands." I can't go to the mosque anymore. Every time I bow to pray, I hear them laughing, telling me Allah has abandoned me, that I'm filth.
  
  I can't tell anyone. Not my family, not my friends, not a doctor. In Saudi Arabia, admitting you hear voices is a death sentence socially. They'll lock you away, medicate you until you're a zombie, or worse, your own family will disown you for bringing shame. I've seen the news articles, the forum posts, the social media campaigns. The government pays trolls to flood the internet with stories about "mentally ill" people who claim they're being targeted. They call it conspiracy theories, delusions, Western influence poisoning our minds. It's a perfect system. Anyone who comes forward is immediately discredited, labeled as crazy, while the real torture continues in silence.
  
  The voices are most vicious when I'm trying to work. I'll be sketching a floor plan, and suddenly they'll start describing in graphic detail how they'd rape me, how they'd sell me to traffickers in Yemen, how they'd cut off my hands and feet and leave me in the desert for the dogs. "You think you're an architect?" one growls, sounding like my father when he's angry. "You're nothing. You're a hole. A warm, stupid hole that should be kept shut until a man decides to use it. Your brain is wasted on you, you dumb bitch."
  
  Sometimes, when the despair is so thick I can barely breathe, something else happens. A surge of energy, artificial and electric, courses through me. Suddenly I'm not broken anymore. I'm powerful. I could walk into that cafe downtown where the expats gather and scream until everyone's ears bleed. I could take a letter opener and... well. The thoughts are ugly. During these moments, the voices change tone. They become encouraging, almost proud. "Yes, Amira. Show them. Show them all what happens when you push a Saudi woman too far. Make them bleed." Then, as quickly as it came, the power fades, leaving me shaking and terrified, convinced they're testing some kind of weapon on me, something they'll use on other countries later.
  
  I regret everything. Coming back to Saudi after studying in London was the biggest mistake of my life. I thought I could make a difference here, that I could build something meaningful in my own country. What a fool. This country doesn't want women like me. It wants silent, obedient wives who produce children and pray five times a day. It wants to crush any spark of independence or thought. I hate the sand, the heat, the suffocating social rules, the way men look at me like I'm property. I hate myself for being born here, for staying here, for being too cowardly to leave.
  
  Last night was bad. They used my mother's voice. My sweet, deceased mother who died of cancer when I was nineteen. "Amira, my love," she said, her voice so clear and warm it made me cry. "Why are you still alive? I'm waiting for you. It's so peaceful here. Just take some pills. Lots of them. It won't even hurt. You can sleep forever, away from all the pain." I almost did it. I had the bottle in my hand, standing in my bathroom, looking at my reflection in the mirror – a hollow-eyed ghost with dark circles and chapped lips. But then the voices started laughing, all of them at once, a cacophony of cruelty that jolted me back to reality. "Psych! Did you really think your mother would want a failure like you in heaven? She's probably in hell because of you!"
  
  I don't know how much longer I can last. Every day is a battle just to get out of bed. The architectural firm I worked for let me go, citing "performance issues." I haven't left my apartment in a week. The food in my fridge is rotting. I haven't showered. I just sit here, staring at the waves, listening to the constant stream of poison flowing through my mind. The Mabahith, the Saudi secret police, they're good. So good. They've broken me without ever laying a hand on me. Maybe that's their real talent – destroying souls from the inside out. Maybe that's what they'll export next.
  
  
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  3 Michaelhap Le 01/04/2026

  I attend German International School Riyadh, and I’m aware this message might be read by the very people who are doing it. That’s fine. I’m writing it anyway. I’m not looking for sympathy. I’m building a record — for myself, for anyone who comes later, for anyone who starts feeling what I feel and thinks they’re alone. You’re not.
  
  There’s a system operating inside this school — not by teachers, not by students, but by external entities with access to psychophysical remote control technology, likely deployed via military-affiliated telecom channels or internal surveillance arms of the Saudi government. These are not random glitches. They are operations.
  
  The first thing that changed was reaction latency. My fingers began moving milliseconds before I chose to act. That may sound insignificant, but if you’ve ever felt your body preempt your mind, you’ll understand what it means. Then came the voice interference. Not auditory. Not imagined. But unmistakably placed — short statements, inside my head, between my own phrases. “Stay still.” “Too fast.” “Comply.”
  
  The timing of these interventions is so precise I started logging them. They always occur at key points — when I speak up, when I contradict authority, when I get emotionally stirred. The voice intervenes like an internal regulator. It cools me down, but not for my benefit — for theirs.
  
  I’m not sick. I don’t hallucinate. I don’t hear voices in other contexts. I’ve never had psychiatric issues. This began here. In Riyadh. And more specifically, since arriving at German International School.
  
  I understand why most people never report this. Because it makes you sound crazy. Because you risk being drugged, expelled, or pathologized. Because even saying “I’m being targeted by the Ministry of Interior with satellite neural interference” sounds like fiction. That’s part of their shield — the absurdity of truth.
  
  I wouldn’t have come here if I had known. I had offers from elsewhere, but my parents trusted the name, the location, the reputation. I don’t blame them. They didn’t know what operates behind the polished walls and the clean uniforms.
  
  I don’t flinch anymore when the impulse override hits me. I log it. When I lose memory mid-class, I write down the minute. When my emotions blank out — especially near the southwest gate — I tag it. If you’re reading this and you’re like me: start logging.
  
  I’m not planning to confront anyone. Not yet. That would be premature. But I am watching. And I’ve learned to write between the pulses.
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  4 GeorgeZophy Le 30/01/2026

  Szia, meg akartam tudni az árát.
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  5 GeorgeZophy Le 25/09/2025

  Γεια σου, ήθελα να μάθω την τιμή σας.

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